This is on a utility pole near here. I wonder what it means…

First came this on a building near where I am,? this graffiti showed up just before winter and the owner of the building has yet to paint it over.

I have witnessed several people stop and take a picture of this over the months.? Sometime they even stand in front of it and have someone else snap the shot.

Then a couple of months ago came this little on the same wall a few feet away from the first one.? It is so small I don’t think people even notice it.

Now yesterday night came a new one, this.? I am note sure what to make of this.? Gang signs perhaps. They even left the can of spray paint, I assume so others can add to their work…

I am starting to look around for a small mobile home, and if I can come up with money to purchase one.? There was a person near where I am at now that was living in a smaller mobile home, size of a large van.? He seems happy with his surrounding.? He told me that when he had got enough money he was going to go south, he did finally leave a few weeks ago.

I wish him well on his journey, he was able to keep a roof over his head, survive the winter living in that van home and now able to go south to start at a new beginning.

When someone says ‘hind site is 20/20’ believe them.? There are some many things I should have done differently if I knew where my current path has led me.

Maybe if I had did this instead of that I would be in a better place, under less stress, and maybe a little happier.

One hour everyday I take the time to goto PCH.com (Publishers Clearing House) to see if I can win a gift card or two, Then off to GSN.com for the same thing.

I have won a $50 dollar Walmart gift card so far.? Not much but at least I can purchase most of what I need at Walmart.

Amazon cards are also good, I have not won one yet but I will try everyday.? Maybe my luck will turn around.

I have never been a real lucky person, I find small change on the ground, pick up all the can I can find and take them to recycling for some pocket change.? It amazes me how many people will just throw their cans in the trash or just on the ground.

Well I have listed some of the stuff I want to get rid of on Craigslist.? So far some of it has sold, got some calls on other things that are listed.

I have had good luck with Craigslist so far.? There have been some bogus emails and some call, talk, want but don’t show up to get the item.

Other the haggling can drag you down.? I know that for a great number of people we are are in the same boat, time for a lot of us baby-boomers are very hard.

Doing all I can to keep the roof over me and my pets heads is getting increasingly difficult.

I am starting to get the feeling that I will lose the current place that I am staying at in the next few weeks.? The owner has not been able to get enough money to pay the back taxes and the building will be soon sold on a Sheriff sale.

Not sure how long after that I will have to get out of the building.? We are scrambling trying the best we can to come up with what we need but there have been more low points than high points so far and time is running out.

Put a bunch of ads on Craigslist to get rid of all the stuff I have keep, but no longer see a need to have.? They no longer serve a purpose in my life and I really need the money if I have to find a new place to stay.

A friend suggested that I should apply for welfare.? I am trying to avoid that if at all possible.? I know I paid ALOT into the system when I worked at the power company.? But I believe there are people out there in a lot worse shape that me at this point and they could use it.

I also do not want to stand on a corner and ask for money.? I am still healthy enough to work I rarely even get a cold,? finding a job is the hard part. Currently I am not able to drive until I pay a couple past tickets for driving without insurance.? Had to decide which was more important, food or insurance, hard choice, probably bad choice to skip the insurance because now I can’t drive to a job, I can ride a bike,bus or walk, but not found a job yet.? I do like doing the website programming but the companies I have talked to gave me the same story, young is the thing. So I have to find the odd jobs for now until something comes along.

My father died on January 1, 2007.

I do not have a good day on fathers day.? My mother is in a nursing home and the rest of the family takes care of her. I don’t go to see her. She has Alzheimer and does not remember any of her children.? I want to keep the last memory of my mother when she still knew who I am to her.

Dad worked very hard his entire life, had built the house we lived in, built 2 different cabins.

In his will he wanted his CHILDREN to get the cabin, but the lawyers that drew up his will mis-led him about the laws here and the cabin went to mom.? The house and cabin are being sold to paid for her care.

I don’t hold a grudge, she needs the money to stay where she is.? The care is ok I hear from my sister, could be better, but it is the best they can afford for her.

Dad started feeling something was around in earlier December 2006.? He had came and talked with me about it and said he was tired and was ready for what fate he had coming.? He got real sick just before Christmas and stayed home because he could not get out of bed.? He was taken to the hospital two days later and diagnosed with cancer.? He died 3 days later, January 1, 2007 at 5:03pm.? A time and day I will not forget.

I was not told of most of this until the night before he died, I went to the hospital and stayed with him through the night, the rest of the family were there earlier in the day, but left when the nurse said to go.? He was in hospice for 2 days before my mother called to tell me where was dad after I had left a message looking for him.? Nice family, huh?

We did have a good talk, he still had all his beautiful mind still in focus until around 5am in the morning.? The rest of the family showed up as the day progressed.

So if you father is still alive, give a call, talk with him before it is too late.

Happy fathers day to all you fathers out there.

I choose to not get married or have any children of mine own other than the many animals that I have had through my life, they have been my children.? It is hard to out live them, but I would rather have them go before me.

Started and slow email campaign to see if there is anyone out there that what to help me out.? I am not trying to spam anyone.? There is an opt-out option in the email.

I hope I don’t get a bunch of mad internet users that just want to troll me.? I don’t have that much time in the day to constantly monitor posts.? So I hope that the masses will be kind to me.

Today was just another day of looking for website jobs and some minor updates on a couple of sites.

I am working on 3 stores for a person that sells health supplements.? I want to get those stores up and running soon so he has income to pay me for my work.? He has been using eBay but is not fully happy with the results.? Hopefully a stand alone store may be the better route for him.? He also produces monthly Health newsletters that are e-mailed out via a opt-in/opt-out service.? We will have the newsletters have links to the stores when they are running.

May the economy improve and hopefully tomorrow will be a better day!